In whatever State

I love Paul's comment in the Bible about learning in whatever state he is he can be content. I want to be able to say that. Maybe that's what gets me in trouble. Maybe if I didn't desire to know that my contentment doesn't hinge on my circumstances, then my circumstances wouldn't keep changing so much!

Jeremiah Burrough's book has definitely been a good thing to be reading. It's like God's giving me little tests to see if I really am learning anything. Which is good.

I really enjoyed a few quotes from chapters 8 and 9 last nite in my reading.

You are the spouse of Christ. . . . One married to Jesus Christ and yet troubled and discontented? Have you not enough in him? (145)

How can I even dare to complain about anything? If I could really get into my head exactly what my position in Christ is, I don't think any of this would matter. The little trying things can sometimes be the hardest to not complain about. I actually think about the big things and consider that it's a trial from God, so I'm not as tempted to complain about it. But the annoying things are the ones that get me.

If God gives the man or woman who is discontented for want of some good thing, that good thing before they are humbled for their discontent, such a man or woman can have no comfort from the mercy, but it will be rather an evil than a good to them. . . . People may have the thing, but oftentimes they have it so as it proves the heaveist cross to them that they ever had in all their lives. (159-160)

Everything goes back to His timing. It's perfect.

I'm learning a lot and I know once I get to Ironwood, I'm going to have information coming out of every orifice. But it's good to always be learning, right?


This is to let the whole world (or more accurately the two of you that read this blog) know that Chick-fil-A is now selling milkshakes.

Yes, for roughly $3.00 you can choose from vanilla, chocolate, strawberry, or (my personal favorite) the 900+ calorie cookies-n-cream shake. All are topped with whipped cream and a cherry, of course.

The perks of working fast food . . . right? My friends and I enjoyed a specially made shake last nite on break. The picture is completely out of focus, but we still thought it was cute.

milkshakes are good


I’m sorry, but this is great. I was looking over my checksheet just basking in the fact that I’m almost done with college (ok, two semesters away, but it’s closer than I’ve ever been before, right?) and I noticed that in one column, my GPA was listed as a 7.63. I thought that was nice of the dear people at Bob Jones to realize that I really am that smart. It was heartwarming.

MySpace and Strangeness

Wow. MySpace really ticks me off. I kinda have an account on it, but not really because I never update it and it's really only so I can look for friends. But I hate it. Dumb and stupid. Ok, I'm done now.

My friend Becky graduated on Friday. Actually, a few of my friends graduated with her (Brett, Cape, Steven, Trevor) and a couple others who used to be friends but I really just never talk to them anymore . . . but yeah. I went to it and it was good. I enjoyed seeing all the old people from school. It was weird to think that they were freshmen when I was a senior. Becky is still my favorite freshman, hands down and she will always be that!

Yeah, last nite we had a wicked storm over here. Actually, it was early this morning. We're talking like 3:00 a.m. I was awake because, while I enjoy your average thunderstorm, I don't enjoy lightning and thunder right outside my window! I always start thinking in wcs-mode (Worst Case Scenario) and start pondering how at any moment one of the very tall pine trees in the woods behind our house could slice through my room. Yeah, I hate paranoia. Anyways, so like 3:18 my door bursts open, and my dad is like, "Audrey, where are your keys?!" (My dad has sleep-apnea, so he wears this mouth piece so he won't die in the middle of the nite, so really it was more like, "Audwee, whea aah you keyth?!") I groggily asked why he needed them and he told me that my car alarm was going off. The one nite I park my car outside the garage and it starts going off. So I went and fixed that. We're not sure if lightning hit the car or if it just went off because the storm was so crazy. It was weird. But something happened with it when I was at work earlier yesterday (it was storming badly again). So yeah, whatever.

I've been seriously slacking on my reading. I haven't touched Contentment since my last post but I've been trying to get through Created for His Glory seeing as that one needs to be done for camp. I'm on chapter 9, so there's like 5 more or something. I should get through that in a couple days. BUT I did just finish one of those Puzz3d puzzle things (the capital building) and I did it all by myself. I'm such a grandma at 21. This is not looking good.

The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment

This is book 7 of my summer reading. I was a little apprehensive to pick this one up and start reading it because contentment is something I'd like to think I've gotten a handle on. It's been a focus for at least the past year, but there are definitely areas where I'm still discontented.

Chapter 1 really sucks you in, though. Jeremiah Burroughs made it very clear to me. I don't know exactly what it was, but yeah. Basically the first chapter is spent defining the following statement:

Contentment is the inward, quiet, gracious frame of spirit, freely submitting to and taking pleasure in God’s disposal in every condition.

He points out several things that I've always wondered about in the back of my mind in dealing with contentment. Contentment isn't opposed to being apprehensive about our circumstances. If I don't understand the risk, it's not really contentment. It's more ignorance. It's also ok to present my complaints to God in a quiet, submissive way.

A few quotes that stuck out to me . . .

And so far as he leads me I may follow his providence; it is but my duty. . . . with such submission and holy resignation of spirit, to be delivered when God wills, and as God wills, and how God wills, so that our wills are melted into the will of God. (p.22)

It's that melting of my will into God's will that is probably one of the biggest struggles of contentment (at least for me). I mean, I desire God's will above all else, but to actually be content in waiting for that and to put everything into His hands isn't as easy as saying it.

When God casts us down, we must be content to lie till God bids us stand up, and God's Spirit enters into us to enable us to stand up. (p.37)

I'm only on chapter 5 of this book because I'm actually taking notes as I'm reading it. But I would recommend reading it for just the first chapter even. It's a little repetitive in places, but I think that may be because it's a compilation of sermons? (Not really sure about that, but it seems like it's plausible.)

Kyle Cooper

One of the most amazing guys, seriously! His work as a graphic designer is so freakin awesome! He does title sequences for films and is great in his field. Motion typography . . . how cool is that? Very inspiring! This is the kind of stuff I would love to do. I mean, for real . . . who wouldn't want to work with type for the rest of his life?

Cooper has done title sequences for movies ranging from Se7en to Spiderman and Mission Impossible. Prologue films really covers a wide range of his work all rolled into one pretty cool sequence, but to see more of his work, I recommend Imaginary Forces. (Go to the project heading at the top right.)

Summer Endeavors (my booklist)

I don't know if that's the right word. ("Endeavors", that is.) But you'll get over it if it's not. I have already finished 2 books and have started on 2 more. I have a list of 16 already and I know it will continue to grow as my summer escapes me.

Here's the list:
Cultivating Spiritual Fruit by Robert C. Gage
The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment by Jeremiah Burroughs
Help . . . I'm a Camp Counselor by Norman Wright
The Five Love Languages
by Gary Chapman
Created for His Glory by Jim Berg
Brokenness by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
Surrender by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
Holiness by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
The DaVinci Code by Dan Brown
Single, but not Sorry by Joyce Parks (eh . . . this is a maybe)
The Blithedale Romance by Nathaniel Hawthorne
How to Talk to a Liberal (if You Must) by Ann Coulter (started)
Love to Eat, Hate to Eat by Elyse Fitzpatrick
Overcoming Fear, Worry, and Anxiety by Elyse Fitzpatrick
Ready to Restore by Jay Adams
12 Dynamic Bible Study Methods by Richard Warren (aka Rick Warren)
Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Persuasion by Jane Austen (maybe . . . could be too much of Jane for me for one summer)

And there are 5-10 more books in my dad's library (over 600 books) that I'm definitely interested in. My goal is one a day until camp starts, at least. We'll see.

I don't know what's sparked my interest in reading so suddenly. If I read all these books, it'll probably be more than I've read my entire life (close, at least).

the last nite

My final evening at school was funny. I actually climbed into one of the overheads, which I’ve been meaning to do for a while now. Connie was able to capture some pictures of it, although most weren’t exactly . . . um . . . flattering, to put it nicely.

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