Oops.

Sometimes you end up doing things that you thought you never would.

A little thought was planted in my mind by a pretty cool person. He said something along the lines of…”We don’t go around looking for these things. God just brings them to us, and then we know it’s our responsibility.” I’m probably paraphrasing very badly, but I think I’m still getting the basic idea across.

Tonight in prayer group we played a fun game. Take an everyday object and apply it to your spiritual life. Here’s what we came up with . . .

  • jump drive: our sins aren’t stored forever on God’s list; they can be removed.
  • watch: we need to make every second of our lives count
  • gouache paint: God brings us things that we don’t always enjoy, but they’re there to help us rely on Him and teach us lessons
  • magnets: I can’t let anything get between me and God because my attraction to Him will be interrupted
  • paintbrush: without God’s hand, I can’t do anything. I’m like a paintbrush without an artist
  • play-dough: I should be able to molded by God’s hand to become whatever He wants me to be
  • wd-40: this was compared to God’s Word. Without constantly being in the Bible, I become squeaky and get stuck in a rut. But if I’m constantly in God’s Word, things will tend to run smoothly
  • stapler: we can rely on God to keep our lives together
  • tube of toothpaste: I need to watch what I do and say, because once something has occurred, it can’t be taken back. Just like once the toothpaste is out, it can’t be put back in.
  • lint roller: A lint roller picks up black from a black sweater or white from a white sweater. It picks up whatever it’s around. I need to surround myself with godly people because they will rub off on me.
  • ball: God has the whole world in His hands

Lastly, the thing I chose was an eraser. At first, I didn’t know what I was going to say, but then I was hit with a thought. Ok, as an artist, I always dreaded drawing class because I can’t draw. To me, the most important tool isn’t the pencil, but the eraser. I constantly focus on all the mistakes I make. If you study a true artist, you can’t help but notice how free they are in their strokes. They aren’t concerned with stray lines or things that may seem out of place. They just keep drawing. And in the end, they produce a beautiful work of art. I don’t have to be so focused on all the mistakes I make. God doesn’t say, “Wow. You royally messed that one up, Stees. We’re gonna have to go back and erase that.” I limit God when I feel like I’ve made a mistake that He can’t handle. He takes whatever mistakes I make and brings them all back to glorify Himself. I don’t have the capability to mess up God’s plan for my life. Taking this back to the classroom example, a lot of the times, I was so focused on drawing the line just right that I would erase something fifty times. I wasted over half the class period at times trying to make sure I was doing something perfectly instead of realizing that sometimes it’s the little oddities that add so much.

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Performancing

This is pretty sweet. Sometimes I just love technology. I can now update my blog from my computer any time even though my site is blocked at school. This makes me pretty happy.

I just downloaded Firefox 2.0 and it has this add-ons site that you can go to and add-on this thing called performancing. It lets you update your blog without having to go to it. You can even add several blogs if you have a few. Pretty sweet.

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Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like it would be nice just to know.

And then I wonder if I really do want to know.

I think I always come back to the realization that I do know lots of things. But, as a normal person, I focus on the one main thing I don’t know instead of living based on the things I do know.

Here are the things I want to know:

1. Am I  going to get married? If so, to whom?
2. What should I do next year?
3. What will I be doing for the rest of my life?
4. Why does loving people have to hurt so badly?

Here are the things I do know:

1. God is good, and love is who He is.
2. God will give me the right desires when I delight in Him.
3. In trying to figure out what to do next year, I should take the next logical step. If God doesn’t want me there, He’ll close the door.
4. It wouldn’t be love without sacrifice, and sacrifice tends to hurt.
5. I’m where I need to be at this exact moment.
6. If I don’t have it, I don’t need it right now. (God promises to supply my needs.)
7. God’s timing is perfect. His ways and thoughts are so much above mine that I’ll never be able to understand them. I shouldn’t try to predict when things will happen.
8. I am never in control of anything. So I should just stop trying.

A Day in NYC

I am sitting in the Hampton Inn located in New Jersey about an hour from Manhattan (NYC). Maybe less than that. And today I went to the Whitney Museum (although I didn’t tour it . . . long story). I also went to see the St. John’s Bible at the Museum of Biblical Art which was amazing. Calligraphy and illumination the whole way throughout. Crazy intense consistency in the letters.

I spent a while in Times Square as well. Took some fun pictures and visited the HUGE cube Apple store. I was in heaven on earth.

We went to the Society of Illustrators which was kinda disappointing because we didn’t get to go upstairs and see the Rockwell’s they had. But tomorrow is looking promising because we’re going to . . . MoMA!!!!! I can’t wait!

And all day Saturday is the Met. Too exciting.

Maybe I should explain why I didn’t tour Whitney. It’s because we were told it would be $5 for admission and then when we got there it was $15. Not to mention we were going to the Society of Illustrators in 30 minutes, so I thought it was pointless to pay $15 to rush through in 30 minutes. So we just walked back to the Frick Museum and waited there and people-watched.

Like I said, I got some cool pictures, but it will be a while before I can get those posted because I left my cord in the Vintage office. Oh well.

Apples Galore

You should be jealous. I’m in the Apple store in NYC at the moment. I’ve been gone from the bubble land for almost 24 hours. And awake for most of those. But today has been lots of fun, just hanging out with friends – in pants, feeling normal. And this makes me want my macbook so much sooner!!!

Fun times. Hopefully I can update regularly on the trip.